One of the most impactful things that I witnessed during my participation in CAMH Collaborative Learning College was the incredible importance of social connection. Our society suffers from an epidemic of loneliness and isolation. In a few short weeks in a recovery college setting, we can build community and combat our feelings of despair and isolation as it relates to our mental illness, our addictions, our grief, and our loneliness. In this photo and this poem I was trying to capture the idea that we can conquer these feelings of disconnection and isolation by reaching out our hands - one to ask for help when we need it, the other to offer support when we can.
We are all destined to die,
so let me ask you this:
Did you share a bench, gift a scarf,
hold on to someone’s grief?
Did you worship where you rested,
on pinecone, sun and rain?
Did you wipe a tear, kiss a cheek,
keep a tender heart from harm?
Did you love enough?
And let me ask you this as well:
When you suffered and despaired,
did you remember,
yes, remember
that you were not alone.
I’ve had to start over many times in my life and navigate various transitions, which have in some ways, been impacted by my ongoing recovery. Having faced certain challenges has given me a certain perspective that I was fortunate to explore a bit through my participation in the photovoice study.
The photos I took center some of the above themes and much more.
With every new season, I’ve had to adapt, grow, and evolve. Embarking on various pathways has also taught me how to let go of the old and embrace the new. With photos such as the tree in the process of losing its leaves, I chose to showcase the beauty I saw. One thing I noticed about this tree is that even in the face of loss, it does not lack. Often, I enjoy looking to such examples for ideas on how to balance the periods of change in my life and live on with dignity and hope.
With photos such as the “Need to Talk” hotline sign and the interactive note-sharing exhibit, I have chosen to represent the power of community and connection. I believe messages of hope and encouragement backing one’s will to survive can be found even at the lowest points. Finally, the “Inhale/Exhale” series was meant to demonstrate the value of silence. To this day, I continue to make space for meditative practices such as reflecting, creative idea storming, deep breathing and yoga to learn how to remain centered as I face the turbulence of various uncertainties and challenges in my life.
In the self-portrait, I look up, to signify my openness to change and the possibilities I remain hopeful for.
We talked about rediscovering out hobbies and things we enjoyed before our health challenges in new ways. I had always loved the mountains. Hiking and camping, even backpacking, but once I became chronically ill I was no longer able to do those things and I gave up on the mountains. Through this project I was able to rediscover my love of the mountains by staying in a hotel and going and sitting at various lookouts. I can still have a vacation in the mountains and find joy in it!
Nothing works when forced. Only when the conditions are right will a flower blossom from a seed. That seed receives so much support and love, the perfect amount of water, the perfect amount of light.
The process of finding peace takes time – just like how all flowers were once just a seed in mud. The peace we find within is often supported by those outside ourselves, just like the clouds provide rain and the sun provides warmth.
I love every photo taken during the Photo Voice. The assignments each week encouraged me to find beauty in surprising places. The search each week was challenging and led me outward into my peer work, community and the heart of my family.
It also led me inward to peaceful views of nature and my spiritual interest in studying Buddhism.
The course was special in the way that each participant found their own unique story to tell.
Thank you Recovery College for a wonderful life changing experience with Sean and Shelby.